So, I have figured out this morning that the title for my blog should be "My Journey Failing To Be A Proverbs 31 Woman". I have failed at this. Yet again. It's nothing new. I read this chapter just last night ( I have actually memorized the whole chapter in an attempt to burn it into my brain) while my husband and I were doing devotions. I read really quickly trying not to listen to myself as I read because I knew that I was not doing what I should be as a wife.
Number 1 how I have failed:
"She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens." Proverbs 31:15
I can't remember the last time I have cooked breakfast for my husband. I told one of my friends that I used to work with "When I get to stay home all the time, I am going to get up every morning and fix my husband breakfast." Well I have not done that.
Number 2 how I have failed:
"She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness."
I am by no means wise. I try to be kind. It is easy to say kind things to people that you are not around alot, but it sometimes seems so hard to say kind things to those that you live with. Why is that?
Number 3 how I have failed:
"She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness."
I do look well to the ways of my house hold. That is one thing I do. But now the whole "eating of the bread of idleness thing" is another story. You would think that with me being a stay at home mom and all, that my house would be spotless, the dishes done, the laundry all put up, and the trash taken out. Well... no. I am a HUGE procrastinator! I always have been. Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow? I'm trying not to think like this. I'm not really "idle". In fact, I'm always doing something, but not necessarily something useful.
This is just a little confessional of how I have failed as a Proverbs 31 woman. Maybe in a couple of days I maybe able to blog about my successful journey trying to be a Proverbs 31 woman! I really want to be the best mother and wife I can be. I pray several times a day asking God to please help me with this. Like I said, I want to be a crown, not a stumbling block. Crowns are much prettier than rocks!